Help.
School should be a place for kids to be happy, right?
I don't know where did all go wrong, but school make me feel like a worthless piece of shit who can't do anything.
School makes me feel stupid.
School makes me feel useless.
School makes me anxious.
School makes me depressed.
School makes me hates myself.
School makes me wanting to die.
School makes me want to commit suicide.
I freaking hate school!
I don't freaking care about my score on test!
I know all the teachers who read this, probably would think like; "Idiot suicidal girl, you're going to be fail later! Study is a must!"
Oh, shut the F up!
I know that very well.
But I am only human.
I am no robot.
There's so much problem I should deal at home.
"But adult dealt with so much problem than you!", what? Seriously? I am kids, a teenager. I have a problem. And the difference between your problem and my problem is... Nothing. No difference.
I can't memory all the text in each book for test because my mind is in a freaking hurricane!
I am trying to memorize all the text, I've tried!
But I just can't.
My mind won't cooperate with me.
Negative thought are haunting me like crazy.
And the teacher wouldn't even bat an eye to see one of their student collapsing under the pressure that they put on.
Teacher would just judge, and hate the the student who fail at their class.
They don't give a shit about what actually happened to their student, who become lazy studying and fail at the test.
They just judge, hates, and kill you slowly.
Until you die by suicide,
And then they suddenly care about the truth.